Suicide Song

The quiet strum in the living space
It was Christmas day when he played
The struggle real but calm his hands
as he battled with his guitar

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

From the corner of each eye
If we’d have known to spill some tears
Thank goodness moment captured
Saved by a watchful foreboding

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

His sister near, this dear nephew sung
the stanzas as he moved imminent strings
A couple years later, I’d sit up in bed
It was such the occasion to raise the dead

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

This poem not meant to be tailored
just raw, sorrowful, surrendered to
the beautiful moment before the pandemic
then hell took ground and blood spilled out

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

Remembered more the facebook sage
the basking in the baptismal plunge
Before that was the Suicide Song
to his mother, father, sisters, brother

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

He thought he was past this depart-ation
but at last he stepped back into the past
perhaps a legion of demons took hold
Oh how this family pulled, but alas

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

He is remembered kindly despite this act
One friend spoke at his memorial - a grace
as he asked the Lord: only if the pastor asks
for more. He told of my nephew’s witness to him

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah

What grace this was. We would not forget
the first and last time we spoke to his friend,
for then the Lord took him too - an accident.
No accident, we met him face to face. Grace

Hallelujah…sing…Hallelujah
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May 16, 2025 at 8:38 AM
Dear Kim, this is exquisitely penned, a heartfelt poem so touching
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 10:00 AM
Thank you dearly.
M  Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:32 AM
Such sadness Kim….l can’t even imagine the grief and pain in dealing with a loved one taking their own life especially a young one. A sad and unbelievably heart touching write! Debx
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 10:00 AM
We miss him. Thank you.
Rolland Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 1:24 AM
so touching and graceful poetry, taking care of everyone blessings
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 10:01 AM
Thank you, Yann, for your sweet sentiments.
Maverick Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 10:32 PM
Five years ago Kim..I conject on Olivers witness Below..Perhaps unconciously.? And here am i a Con-vid insider ( by accident ) or is all in Gods Plan? Or solely the deviousness evil of man? I can no longer make a pattern... May you find comfort and strength in Jesus name.'
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:14 AM
Jesus Christ died so we might be reunited. We live in a cursed world. God intervenes at times. He is the Ancient of Days, seeing from beginning to end. All things work together for good, for those who love the Lord. The pandemic was the one we went through, also 911, and in the past other situations. Life is not easy but with the Lord it is better. Thank you, Joe!
Singh Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 9:32 PM
Shocking but God has destined, a touching poem.
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:09 AM
Thank you, Akham!
Mckeithan Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 6:52 PM
Powerful and sad. About the toughest way to die. Very difficult to understand. 5 yrs ago a friend lost his only daughter to suicide. Your poem is very poinant.
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:09 AM
They stand on the tightwire between life and death…sometimes they are saved, sometimes not..I look at such things differently then I used to.
Legros Kelley Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 3:37 PM
Kim, beautiful, I am in tears as I read your poem, my heart reaches out to all of you across the miles. The praise in his song gives hope to the grace and love of God that is a comfort. I know the sorrow of loss leaves such heartache till we're in our Savior's arms where His grace and healing will have us all singing Hallelujah. What comfort to have such a witness of your nephew's faith and worship, precious treasure that brings hope in grace through our King. Hugs to you Kim
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:06 AM
I wish he had the ability to overcome. I think he got pulled in and it held him tight. His whole family tried. Their suffering of the whole situation, I can’t imagine. My niece shared one incident on FB…so hard to read. On one attempt, my brother was not home and my niece had to deal with the terrible scene and his vacant eyes. My heart breaks…
Rodgers Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 11:51 AM
Dear Kim, You read mine, and now I have to read yours. :) Oh that haunting image of your nephew, guitar in hand, the family gathered, the ache just beneath the surface. I’m struck by how you hold space for sorrow and beauty at the same time, refusing to tidy it up or look away. That takes courage, Kim. It’s the kind of honesty that makes poetry matter. Spring Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel
Rodrigues Avatar
May 16, 2025 at 7:03 AM
He sang for himself, not for our entertainment. I think like writing poetry (and he was a writer too) it was cathartic. These kinds of poems always give me pause…to post or not. I reread it several times. I have no desire to offend his family or to find fame in such a poem, only to speak my heart and honor his. RIP sweet Pete
Goldsmith Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 11:01 AM
WOW!!! What a powerful write/story you have here. I am so very sorry. Sometimes we do Not know what others are going through. "Good Luck" if for a contest. Have a Blessed Day writing away............
Rodrigues Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 11:14 AM
Yes, so true. Thank you, dear soul!
Hind Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 10:08 AM
This is a haunting poem, I know haunting is not quite the right word for this Christ-centered piece, but... amazing work, Kim, touching, powerful. "He thought he was past this depart-ation but at last he stepped back into the past" that pulled at me....you have a testimony, dear Kim. In my favs, - ooo
Rodrigues Avatar
May 15, 2025 at 11:15 AM
Thank you, Paige. Though I can not understand life fully, these sorrows help me to console others. Hugs xx
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