Suicide Self Justified

As I stand I look around
left, right, up and down
hearing it again I ponder
"devil? over yonder?"

When I explored myself farther in
depths, darks, shadows and sin
reassuring its presence in my head
"death? am I dead?"

Further deep into abyss
seemed to living in this bliss
I opening wider an ever so lightful door of "Life"
found myself standing in front of me, holding a knife

Furthermore more farther into mind
thought to be dreaming until I find
He pulling me into deeper black
looked me in the eye, stabbing I in my back

Farthest now thoughts stand still
bounded to try breathing before my last breath will
I blurring life out of vision
forced me to make I make one last decision

No farther forth can I venture
trapped to answering my question answered
He stabbing forward again the knife
left times up saying "that's life"
Copyright © | Year Posted 2011

Poem

Post Comments

Poetrysoup is an environment of encouragement and growth so only provide specific positive comments that indicate what you appreciate about the poem. Negative comments will result your account being banned.

Please Login to post a comment

A  Avatar
July 25, 2016 at 2:05 AM
Chrisian, enjoyed reading your poem today. ,Thank you for sharing your words. Hope to see you post again.... *SKAT*
Brown Avatar
February 17, 2011 at 11:39 AM
Welcome to PoetrySoup Christian. I know this is a late welcome but, I have had some very pressing matters going on. I hope to be back and at full speed in the next week or so. Until then please keep writing and sharing your poetry. Love, Carol
Kendrick Avatar
February 10, 2011 at 4:33 PM
Interesting work..Not sure the outcome here; it seems that you are alive so I guess that you overcame the dark abyss and overcame the depression and are still living..Sara
Adeite Avatar
February 10, 2011 at 4:32 AM
wow! life, beyond those sure shadows are rare rainbows lingering amidst Love & light, there is much to life... thanks for sharing this.I enjoyed this piece. hey you are gonna make a great poet. Take time to learn from & interact more with the great pens here. welcome to the loveliest poetry community. please keep writing! Love always, Adeleke
Marcum Avatar
February 9, 2011 at 5:06 PM
smile -- yep, that's life; just like that, my friend -- and, hopefully for yourself you shall find a brightened rainbow waiting beyond that door given by, the blade of a knife -- excellent poe amid the darker shades of, the reflective muse ~ love, christopher ~
Get a Premium Membership
Turn off ads, get more exposure for your poetry, and get more features with a Premium Membership.
Book: Diverse Voices: The Poetry of Human Rights and the Pursuit of Peace