Suicide

My life is filled with frustration, hate and anger
But is totally dominated by fear
Absolute fear

When I look into the mirror I see nothing
Nobody
I am stranger unto myself

My actions are caused by pure anger
I cannot control myself
I am violence

I believe in pain
I permanently need to be punished
I am pathetic

I have no other way to release my emotions
Only to hurt myself
And to drown in the mesmorising pain

I am overpowered
Overpowered by these emotions
Slowly they’re killing me inside

I have tried to fight back
But I am engulfed with problems
Problems with no solutions

I don’t care anymore
I hate myself
I am nothing

I won’t be missed
I had no purpose
I am useless

It becomes too much to handle
I am not worthy to live
I take my life

deathdepressionhatefree verse

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Vince Suzadail Jr.

November 10, 2014 at 7:31 PM

Never really the answer. I've worked with kids and this is exactly the emotions they've shown. Worth and price are synonyms but no one is worthless, only priceless.

Poet Destroyer A

October 29, 2010 at 8:23 PM

Amy your poety is wow! kind of deep well really deep. I really enjoyed your poem.. p.d.

Vince Suzadail Jr.

October 29, 2010 at 9:18 AM

Sad Amy. Sometimes in life the anger and the hurt blind us to the good that is out there and our own sense of self worth. I've seen a lot of this in the kids I work with, the cutters, SI kids, abused, abandoned, etc. No one is worthless, and each is priceless. God Bless. Vince

Duncan Chappell

October 5, 2010 at 6:01 AM

oh powerful but your better than this excellent write i feel like this most days of my life be strong my friend [duncan ]

Linda-Marie Sweetheart

September 27, 2010 at 5:05 PM

Welcome to Poetry Soup.. so enjoyed reading your intense creative write tonight.. hope this is fiction and not fact... check out the contest scene to enter and good luck with lluv..

Skat A

September 27, 2010 at 7:55 AM

AMY THIS POEM IS SAD, I REALLY HOPE YOU DON'T FEEL LIKE THAT. ARE YOU NEW HERE, IF SO WELCOME. DEEP BUT, AMAZING, A WONDERFUL POEM TO READ! HAVE A BLESSED DAY*luv~SKAT

Doris Culverhouse

September 27, 2010 at 5:35 AM

sad thoughts for anyone to take their own life... it would be such a waste no problem is too big to overcome.

Carol Sunshine Brown

September 27, 2010 at 5:19 AM

I would like to welcome you to PoetrySoup Amy. Wishing you the best in your writing endeavors. You can look to the left side of the main page and find lots of information on PoetrySoup including contests by members of PoetrySoup and contests by the PoetrySoup site also which you may enter.If you have questions please feel free to ask anyone here. We are all willing to help and if we don't know the answer we will find someone who does. Love, Carol