Suicidal

Man I feel like committing suicide because my life is not getting any better I pray to my God everyday but he doesn't listen Times are getting hard Sitting in my room with no windows or lights what does my future holds My friends are disappearing in a blink of an eye Can't even rest my head at night because I'm hearing voices saying that you're going to die tonight Seeing the devil through my bottle of whiskey telling me to kill myself Having memories of my dead beat peers that I lost for years I'm losing my mind freaking out trying to kill myself Thinking that I will feel better but every time I pick up that nine all I see is my mother’s eyes 32 It's hard to face the truth crime is rising heavily throughout my community That I don't even feel safe anymore The world is getting worser everyday so somebody please tell me what I'm living for Because nobody cares about me if I die today people will move on as if I was a nobody And my own family don't even appreciate me all they do is talk about me and tell people how dumb I'm is So what's the point of living when I don't even have confidence within myself? Somebody please give me my gun so I can shoot myself maybe If I do I can finally rest in peace And I know it’s sad that I want to commit suicide But this is how life is sometimes With too much pain to dealt with some people rather be dead Than to face the *****that I go through every day From being broke to getting shot at And the only person that show me love was my crack head friend selling weed on the corner of my block 33I feel like jumping out the window and letting everything go Because I have nothing to lose accept for my soul