Suffocate

She told me I should do this and that but everytime I called on her she always turned her back. I get it now I see now you never really loved me, your ashamed of me and this has been way before u found out that I was into girls. You would tell me all the time how you wish my stomach would go away, but I am me and you are you. I bet just for one day you couldnt walk a mile in my shoes..... All thee things you put me thru and all the times I depended on you, I wonder how you would feel if the rest of your kids turned their backs on you too. The feeling of neglect and mental abuse from you, in the back of my mind there are so many devious things I could do to you, but I am not going to put my hands on you because I know there will be plenty of nights that you will cry the blues.....