Stranger Love

I pushed you away when you wanted to be close to me When I got better from depression I told you how I felt You didn't want to know, cut me off and here I am by myself I'll love you as a stranger if that's how it's supposed to be I pushed you away so many times, so now I'm hoping you're doing the same Depression had control of me, it was deeper than playing games I think about you daily, and it kills me, knowing we no longer speak I smile for the world, but my heart feels weak I wish I got help quicker so maybe things would be different I could write 99 chapters but I'd always be curious about the page that's missing You tried so hard for me, So now I have to be patient for you I hope one day we speak again, but I'm not waiting for you If you ever want to talk to me, then you know where I am We may even end up together and I'll be your man I can't say what the future holds But I can't rely on it maybe happening because that'll just leave me more broke If I had one wish, I'd go back in time, and get help quicker I'm not throwing up, but I've never felt sicker My stomach is in knots, I'm trying to forget you but you replay on my mind I hope you find happiness and love even if it's not mine I hope one day we'll talk again and put all of this behind us 2 amazing people, who are perfect for each other, but time sucks Chantal maybe I'm wrong for putting your name in this But this isn't a poem for anyone else, it's for the girl I miss But we're not speaking so I'll have to put it out for the world to see I hope we speak again, and you'll realize you're the girl for me I'm sorry I pushed you away, Depression had control of me Now I've lost the only person I wanted close to me I pushed you away when you wanted to be close to me When I got better from depression I told you how I felt You didn't want to know, cut me off and here I am by myself I'll love you as a stranger if that's how it's supposed to be