Still Not Getting It

God I am still not getting it ,like many i don't. I cant shut eyes on things and pretend you not seeing all the evil like we thought and thinking you shut eyes on this world even thou You love us as bible sais and that's why you gave your Son .Like we assumed that you are hopeless because people suffering and dying. I dont understand!!! I dont ! that you couldnt just destroy devil satan bad angels from the start ! I dont understand anything at all nothing , zero .Having believing in great |God i dont understand why all this. yet yes i do believe! but does it change anything ? wy my faith believing doesn't give me understanding of this situation bad situation .