Still

I'm living in the past. I'm goin nowhere fast. This concept of life, I can't seem 2 grasp. I'm reaching, I'm reaching, I can't catch a break It's like im sleeping, & can't seem 2 wake. I call & call on God, but no answer How much does it take? I pray, day 2 day for heaven's sake Painful memories of the past, I can't seem to shake It's like im walking, running, in place. Regret haunts me He stares me in the face. I can't fight him off, I have no mase. I'm standing still in a memory pit I'm daydreaming, Reality hasn't hit. I wonder what if What coulve been I need to smell the coffee, just a wiff I swear, I can't win. Save me from the postion im in At a standstill, Yet my mind is moving I just need the courage, the will I need 2 move forward, but I fear losing