Steps In My Mind

www.after360words.blogspot.com www.after360words.com The Emote Monologues Series by Ashleigh Chaka The steps in my mind Dear.... l have written this with due diligence that it gets to you quickly, For you are the only person that l can talk to, l have been having too many headaches, l just feel there is some dodging footsteps in these membranes, l know l am sure You know l just don't make use of my emotional diagnosis, Which l have conformed to now and again, Connoted by the fidgeting of my skull, My mind surely has become a race course, l hope you forgive me for not trusting people and for being so silent, These slight bolting thoughts have been piercing my mind, Confronting my mother being the quickest to the courageous line, Wondering if her decisions in life were ever imbibed with my happiness, If she was ever cognizant of what l wanted... Maybe l overslept on my grandmother back and missed my alarm, l have been so certain... ...that maybe lam the sacred orphan with both parents, ...l do not know who to blame for these feelings, l end up being lost in the maze in my mind, Well twenty-four years of her absence in my life may have eroded her mother-ness to me? Too many questions acquiring of my thesis, l have tried all sorts of discussions with my mind, But to no avail, Perhaps you can come into this discussion What happens if the priceless gift you have in life... Wakes up the other morning with a price tag?? ...Only embedded with the worthiness only equal to our respect? ...Every time l try to resolve this and heal my self, ...the other step in mind steps right on the toes of my angry thoughts, This is what l have been going through... Please exonerate this blood pressure... it's these steps in my mind serving this swollen requisite, Now l can't move on like always, Even my legs have had enough, There are swollen... Shame for some... ... a misconception of Blood pressure. Well dear .... Family pressure. ??+263 784 528 884 steps in my mind Ashleigh Chaka