Standstill

Strangely bent this journey extends Surreal at times, yet so real at ends Each end confronts with a hardship of choices With an abrupt passing, or an eternity of voices... You and I, once on similar trends Like brothers, we traversed all evil impends The wheels then turned, unleashed worst of fears We parted asunder on an ocean of tears Through fallen decades, aggrieved heart sustained I found my calling, forgot I was pained Just when the going got peaceful and boring Gales of anguish, and war started pouring Again, I was forced to extinguish my wills Left home for those in need of my skills Forced to welcome the worst of thrills A reward for one with the highest kills? As we splattered blood on uncertain causes Strode down the road of victories and losses A vessel, merely, I was as I killed Of sons, of husbands, of fathers, I spilled In the heat of the battle, as I charged through When my craving eyes met the eyes of you That instant, that second, that moment, I knew Neither decades nor ages could help subdue My faltering sword could no longer fight For whom I now behold in my sight And I question my vow, having vowed despite Whether or not my cause was right Yet again, I stand on the recurring hill In the midst of havoc, at a standstill A piece of land that I swore to defend Is it worth the life of a brother, a friend?