Standing In the Dark

Standing in the dark I see my shadow looking at me. Standing in the dark I see my shadow reminding me why I am on this earth. Standing in the dark I watch my life go by. Standing in the dark asking myself what am I doing to myself. Showing me the past is the past and to let go of all the pain and anger I carry inside. What happened to me in the past has changed me. Things that happened to me have changed the way I view life. When my grandpa died things got worse in house hold I lived in. One night a big fight happened I felt like there was nothing to live for. These people had brain washed my mom the only person I had in life. Standing in the dark I took a handful of pills before I realized the shadow of my grandpa was there. That is what stopped me from killing myself someone who cared for me. Standing in the dark somone comes to me and tells me things will get better with time. Standing in a dark room realizing the voice was my grandpa Earl. As time went on things got worse now accused of stealing they would search my room and take things that were not thiers. Upset I would stand in a dark room and I would slit my wrists. I felt like that was the only way to feel pain and it always made me feel better. Today things are getting better in a new home where I am able to have friends over. I also have my mom back. Standing in the dark starring at my shadow I realize life is the most important thing to have. Standing in the dark I have a new lease on life and people love me for who I am. Standing in the dark i see what my furture mybe like if I keep on living. Standing in the dark someone comes in saving me from the things I might do to myself. Standing in the light I ask for help.