Spiraling

I unraveled to you at a huge loss. it didn't take long to see how much that word vomit cost me. Now I'm spiraling and I can't go back. I can't get my life back on track. where do we go from here? I can listen to you all day long but when I try to say how I feel it goes all wrong. So I try to write it down in a song but the words are empty. Now I'm spiraling and my words won't fill the empty space, and I feel so ill. I can't take back what I said, This is so unreal. I'm pretty sure I broke us. So I'll just be here to listen to you, I'll be your friend like I always do. But if I opened my mouth fill it with a shoe, I can't go through this again. Now I'm spiraling and my words don't rhyme, I think about you all the time But now I know I can't tell you that, it has wrecked us. I thought we were different but there's too much you can't reciprocate. Life with you will be a lonely fate, I don't do good when my feelings are bound, wound so tight I can't touch the ground. Now I'm spiraling and You can't be here, I need you now but you've disappeared. Your my best friend but I've no one left to talk to. I wish I could make the day go away, like it never happened the way it did today. I said so much I shouldn't have said, now without you I feel dead. Now I'm spiraling so just let me die, I said too much and I don't know why. I don't know how to get back to you. We're miles apart now. The next time I see you i'll be wearing a smile, and you can tell me about your day, share your hopes and pains because I'm your friend but you'll never know just how much I won't say. Now I'm spiraling and I'm holding it in, I've muted my heart so you won't hear me, So you won't feel me, So you'll still want to be near me. ©SamHarty