Sorry

today was the first time i cried, for a long time, i felt my fears flow once again, i felt all that had once ruptured my heart had come back to haunt me, i saw the memories that i had locked away, and i faced my fears, alone, once again. i was crying and couldnt stop, oh how i wish i didnt, but i found myself, bowing to my weakness once again, im afraid now, terrified, i want to take back the wrong that i had done, but i cannot turn back time, i always seem to be ruining things, i just wish i knew what to do... now... im here, unable to face you with apologies, unable to say anything, but wishing, hoping, that maybe, tomorrow will be okay... *crying my heart out* i couldnt tell you. im to afrid, so here it is. i lay myself out to u, at my weakest.