Songs of Motherhood

To be a mother is to be rain and sunshine at once to drown oneself while saving another and to give hope while being hopeless. To be a mother is exciting and scary with bouts of anxiety and care preaching self love while hating self To be a mother is to be a safe haven and a shield to endure and suppress needs while giving off self without restraint. To be a mother is nights of sleeplessness for a sick child and sorrowful prayers when it gets worse to wake up tired and exhausted yet smiling to tend and nurse To be a mother is to be everything at once to see and understand without any clue to finish sentences and endure tantrums to want to cry, disappear and yet cook at the same time. To be a mother is to blamed for not doing enough and accused of doing too much to sacrifice and still be sacrificed to know pain deeply like a first name To be a mother is all this and more it is rewarding, fulfilling and unnerving a gift and a semi curse it is a blessing mixed with pain, pride, grief and sacrifice. To be a mother is to want to be a god And yet fail it is to read this poem and relate to it and to pick a line and say - this is me.