Sometimes It Doesn'T Matter and Sometimes It Does

So it matters and sometimes it doesn't Tonight it does I wait for you pathetically I wait for you You text and say you can call later Later comes and you still haven't called Sometimes it matters but sometimes it does I suspend what I should be doing Waiting I think I should do those things I should be doing just to take up time But I wait I do nothing You text again about how soon you'll call as soon as you're done with this thing or that thing or the other thing I wait I don't do the things I should do I don't do the things I want to do I wait You don't text again I text and say I know you're tired and you should call another day and still I wait and don't do the things that should be done It's just that I love you so much more than the things that should be done or even things I want to do I wait a bit more Then I break bad and do things I want to do and I feel guilty as hell that in some small way The things I want to do mean more to me than waiting for you I would wait for you .... you know if I thought there was any way you would ever actually call But you won't because there are so many things you should do and you do them Why am I not more like you