sometimes, i wonder

someday, i will be truly terrific in the highest happiness possible oh my, teary-eyed and my pride is broken into 2 mindless talking sometimes drives me into insanity and free me - it's my only plea elegance essence of endearing endurement endlessly encounters encouraging, engulfing epicness touching you with kindred kindness...resilience's fragrances advances in fragmented fervency i appear weak, but I can disappear fear and cheer up your tears and lift them higher than your strengths beyond lengths mesmerized by momentous memories of us together forever exaggerating our excellence exceedingly so...never, ever give up - never! solitude shatters me apart...take heart and be my art of society's sympathy ,ura tiza xifa, wuqira! wuq mevoV (Never lose hope, my love, my warrior! in dyslexaN dialect) inside, i feel empty...but whole again by Your spiritual smiles of a million miles wowed by Your wondrous works and words of wisdom optimism is eternal and negativity is temporary neverending, nostalgic nightfall makes me want that peaceable Kingdom more and more as I numb dreaming endlessly, passionately & liberatingly end the intrusive suicidal ideations...i haven't had them in 2 weeks now in positively pure and pleasure-beyond-measure patience reign upon me eternal life and its super fantastic sensations beyond physical elations...i experience His resilience in its brilliance