Sometimes I Wish I Was

I see you, I feel you, I know you want me, but I also know that you want me to be her, and I'm not, but sometimes I wish I was. I wish you saw me, as you see her, even though You don't want to be with her any more. I wish that you wouldn't pretend not to know me, when the very last night, laying on bed, I love you, slipped through your lips, which was followed by a huge apology, and you don't realize I didn't even flinch when you said it, because i had been imagining it all along, ever since we made love for the first time, I didn't want your apology, even if I know you said it not because you loved me, but because you wanted me to be her, so you could love me, and I'm content with me being in your bed while you imagine I'm someone else, just that more beautiful, and with no intention of harming you. And I don't understand, how you cannot see me a as you see her, I know I'm not her; but sometimes, I wish I was. I'm better, I would never leave you there to cry your self to sleep, I wouldn't grab you so hard that I would leave a mark on your beautiful skin, I didn't want your apology, But I do apologize to you. 'cause I'm not her, and because sometimes, I wish I was. I apologize, because I'm leaving, I'm going far away, And I know You'll miss me. I know you'll find someone else, as I also know I'm not your only one, but I do know, I'm your best one. I leave my life here, and hope that when I come back, if I ever do, I will no longer want to be her, but me, cause maybe, just maybe, when I get back, You'll love no one, but me.