Sometimes I Ponder Page 1

PONDERING-- I seen myself, torn away... I knew, this was going to kill us both... For we seen each other as, someone else... We thought the same, we shared the same feelings, thoughts, and pain... Two broken hearts, two souls, hiding, afraid.. "Why should I Love?.. For this is more pain... I'm afraid... I don't want to hurt, no more... I'm tired of looking and now, I've done it again... I've fallen in love... How can I be so stupid... I guess, I'm just looking forward, to a broken heart... Torment and Pain... Two minds possessing these thoughts... I don't want to live in pain... I deserve a chance... I've proven-- well I tried to prove everything... But it seemed to be so hard, to Prove my Love... Is it the hardest task to prove?.. So stupid to think about, WHY?? Why did so many do me wrong, what did i do??. How do I know, how can I be sure, that this won't happen again??. Is there really someone out there, that understands?? Is there someone out there that actually feels, the way I do?? Is there someone out there for me?? The worlds against me, everyone is out to get me... I wasn't meant to be happy... I was told I was evil... I was told, nobody would ever put up with me... I was always different and hard to understand... I never harmed anyone, never meant to, if I did... But it always seemed that I did... But how?.. I never done anything wrong... But I was accused constantly, over and over... I was the cause of some mishap.... But how?.. I wasn't even around, even near any mistake made... But it turned out to be, my fault... I was easily accused... I took the blame, to avoid a big controversy... I was always wrong... Everything I did, everything I said, and every thought in my head was wrong... "You're not thinking right... Evil thoughts, you speak of evilness... You corrupt, You torment... You destroy and ruin every-ones lives... Bad luck, misfortune..". Nothing I've done was good enough...