Nasheena Williams Poet I do not know?

Sometimes I Feel Like a Fatherless Child

I feel as though I was born into a jungle not quite prepared for the wild. Sometimes 
I ponder do I have to give into account for your sins. Somehow I think your early 
departure clouded my judgement when it comes to my choices in men. I cant 
pretend that I knew how your dying would affect me. It left me wondering if you 
might've lived how different my life could have been. As I look in the mirror I get a 
glimpse of your smile in my reflection. Why has it taken me years to try and 
overcome my fears.No amount of glue can repair the permanent tear you left 
imprinted in my heart. Why was I searching for you in them.Did it come from the 
unoccupied space that was left after your death. You suffered while exhaling your 
last breathe,Oh how I wept,Like you were that missing step I refused to take.Like a 
solid punch to the chest,I know now God took you from me for the best.Still tears 
wouldnt allow me to rest.I guess at the age of ten I took on a burden of looking for 
my father,dad and he was dead.Oh how I wish I could re-write your life and re-edit 
all the bad decisions you made,So maybe you've would have stayed. How did I pray 
for the cancer to go away,yet it stole not only your health and but also your 
soul.Thankfully God had more goals and for me  write this chapter into life so I can 
attain the goal of being a voice for more  wounded souls.No longer yearning for your 
arms to reassure me and console my world as a whole.Like a dove wings dipped in 
gold,I have a story I just shared to rid me of feelings as the fatherless child,Grown 
as a adult now,and no more  blaming you,me! Just as a cage bird this poem has set 
me free from all negativity!

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Carol Sunshine Brown May 24, 2011 at 5:17 AM A warm welcome to PoetrySoup I offer to you Nasheena. I wish for you the best in your writing endeavors whatever they may be. May you find inspiration by reading some of the poetry written here by other poets. Read and comment on their's and they will return in kind. May the sun shine on you that you might find great joy in your life. Love and blessing always, Carol Nasheena Williams May 24, 2011 at 8:08 AM Thank you Carol for your warm greetings,And Blessings I wish the same for you!