Sometimes

Sometimes I cry when I realize youre gone Sometimes I laugh but thats not for long Sometimes I frown in the middle of the night Sometimes I smile but thats just out of spite Sometimes I stand for all that I love Sometimes I sit because I lose sight of it all Sometimes I knee to pray for what I believe Sometimes I turn my back but I am not proud Sometimes I walk away because I cant take anymore Sometimes you look at me sometimes you dont sometimes youre there when I need you sometimes youre not Always I smile when you appear Always I run away but thats just out of fear Always I want you youre such a great guy Always I need you I can feel it inside Always I love you I'm just not sure why Never can I approach you I'm much too afraid Never can you know because I just dont know why Never will I utter your name for you may laugh Never will I tell you it would hurt too much inside Someday you may figure it out that would be great Someday you may approach me and then I would sigh Someday you may love me, but for now, I die inside.