Some Where In New Mexico

hopeless this i am sad tell me why is that so bad i guess i don't know no good words i did not go to school i didn't wear clothes listen to music or study feel cool how do i get into this world with a ged and a criminal record now that you say i am free down i am why so much tell me why is everything so close to the touch so far away stars they say am i doomed or dubbed is this real tangible something i can place in my pocket and steal i guess happiness such a simple word and we all want the same thing love didn't give me no stinking diamond ring it was a cop out a fix a second home too scared to put myself out there in the unknown i guess this thing i dream is too much to bear so i sleep and i dream i display no care so all i learned take it as you will is an ignorant crude and cruel survival a mixture of things i've eavesdropped and words i thought i'd known oh well we all want the same thing to say feel the same i wish and dream in my sleep that i can without aching without thinking without shooting up, smoking boozing, drinking that calm that peace that sweet release can i get a little stinking ease please god oh please