Solitude of the Heart

I find my thoughts expanding more and more But still the words are left unspoken The past is just a memory Where conversations were never broken So many times I was consumed By words spoken from others To help each other heal our wounds In the end we’d become lovers Now these days I live alone With no one but God in my heart I meet someone new now and then With no thought of where to start And in a moment my chance is lost Due to my lack to entertain For feelings I keep inside To shield from a chance of pain Now this lonely life I live Surrounded by people in love In me I find envy for them For it’s all I seem to think of Because love of another Is what I pursue To have a hand to hold And express my thoughts to. Yet still I hide how I feel And keep it bottled inside But the fear of dying alone Increases with pass of time