Solitude of a Tormented Soul

Here I sit alone; confined to my prison cell
Locked away from the world it is a living hell
I know I should be punished for taking someone's life
I should have forgiven the man who stole my wife

Now I have time to sit and ponder my crime
Total isolation, my life devoid of sunshine
Wish I could turn the clock back to that fateful day
The events of that night are on constant action replay

Now I’m just a pathetic soul
Life is on hold I am no longer whole
Devoid of human contact, only the prison warder
Not allowed visitors even my beloved daughter

No one is here to see the silent tears I cry
Day after day confined, my life is slipping by
Tormented by realisation of my wasted life
Oh to turn the clock back and forgive my cheating wife

08~07~14 

Written for Solitude Contest Sponsored By Scott Thirtyseven
~Awarded 15th place~
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Lindley Avatar
September 26, 2015 at 12:02 AM
SOMETIMES PEOPLE MAKE THEIR OWN SOLITUDE IN THEIR MINDS AND THOSE CAN BE JUST AS EMPTY A PLACE AS THE REAL PRISON KIND ARE. I find this to be a great poem myself. Solid 7 from me..
Allison Avatar
September 26, 2015 at 1:19 PM
Thanks so much Robert:-) I had forgotten all about this one thanks for reading one of my older poems:-) hugs Jan xx
Lawless Avatar
November 16, 2014 at 5:33 PM
Jan, this is the second somewhat "dark side" poem you have written recently. A very intense visitation of the unthinkable nature of forced "solitude". Well written with an edge.
Lawless Avatar
November 16, 2014 at 6:16 PM
Jan, in my own experience poetry has been a valuable tool in dealing with many of life's traumatic issues. It allowed me to express some deeper feelings, pleasant and unpleasant, an to better deal with them. The muse has often led me to places of healing I would not have found alone. John
Allison Avatar
November 16, 2014 at 5:42 PM
I had actually forgotten about this poem until the contest was announced. This was written back in August -just a few days after my dads 90th birthday - he is terminally ill. Guess I just tried to imagine what it is like to have complete solitude and my mind took me in a very strange direction. I do still try and write with humour as much as I can but I guess present circumstances do dictate where my muse takes me and I have to go with the flow:-( Hugs jan xx
Deschler Avatar
November 12, 2014 at 1:36 AM
I like how you've written this from a male's perspective. I found it very interesting to delve deep into the mind of a remorseful murderer... Great work, Jan. Congrats on your win!
Allison Avatar
November 12, 2014 at 2:12 AM
I wonder how they would really feel Kelly - being totally isolated just with ones own thoughts isn't something I can comprehend:-( Hugs Jan xx
May Avatar
November 11, 2014 at 9:26 AM
Congrats on your win Jan
Allison Avatar
November 12, 2014 at 2:11 AM
Thanks Joseph - stunning avatar my friend:-) Hugs Jan xx
Mandani Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 10:52 AM
Hey, I like this one - I'll go run and forgive MY cheating wife! LOL!!!
Allison Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 11:28 AM
LOL Abdul thanks for the comment:-) Hugs Jan xx
Thirtyseven Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 7:15 AM
A great rhyme structure, but I'm personally unable to connect with your protagonist. So sorry, you've won the last numbered position in my "Solitude" competition, which gives it 15 out of 40. Great poem, but not quite what I was looking for.
Allison Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 7:43 AM
I don't think you can get much more solitude than being in solitary confinement locked up 24/7 with no visitors! Jan
De La Luna Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 2:38 AM
pruning solitude, Jan! i love this write! Congratulations!
Allison Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 7:41 AM
many thanks Hija:-) hugs jan xx
Meier-Hans Avatar
November 9, 2014 at 10:49 PM
Congratulations on your win Jan. I just read it and it's very good.
Allison Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 1:14 AM
Thanks Brenda:-) Your support means a great deal to me:-) Hugs jan xx
Yvonne Avatar
November 9, 2014 at 6:40 PM
I don't even think I was here for this contest. Congratulations on writing this beauty. Congratulations on your win.
Allison Avatar
November 10, 2014 at 1:13 AM
I'd forgotten all about this poem - thanks Maurice:-) Hugs jan x
Meier-Hans Avatar
November 9, 2014 at 10:48 PM
Nope, we weren't here.
Callus Avatar
November 9, 2014 at 5:00 PM
Congratulations on this win, Jan; I enjoyed this poem and was hoping to see it higher on the winners' list. Hugs // paul
Allison Avatar
November 9, 2014 at 5:05 PM
Thanks Paul - I'd forgotten all about this write. I have to admit Paul having seen the winners list there are many poems I personally would have placed much higher - I am just happy to be on the list:-) Hugs Jan xx
Devnath  Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 10:42 AM
A very sad story is written in poetic form. Beautifully done of solitude. Loved always, my friend, bl
Allison Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 10:45 AM
Thank you for your lovely comment BL. Hugs jan xx
Mehta Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 6:32 AM
An amazing to the solitude of a rare kind, I love the way you have expressed it, Jan
Allison Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 10:11 AM
Thanks for the lovely comment Dr Mehta:-) Hugs Jan xxx
Anish Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 10:45 PM
What a sad tale you tell here. You tell it well in this ode. Peace and Love Matthew Anish
Allison Avatar
August 8, 2014 at 2:59 AM
Thanks for the lovely comment Matthew:-) Hugs Jan xxx
Parker Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 5:57 PM
I'm not going to repeat what everyone else has already said, but.wow.. you have a lot of friends reading your poetry...good luck in this contest
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 6:03 PM
I am so pleased my poem has captured people's imagination Frederic. Reads and comments are few and far between so I am so grateful for all the support I get. Thanks for your lovely comment:-) hugs Jan xxx
Augustus Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:39 PM
Words truly spoken. This unfortunate crime is relevant for anytime in history. Great write and really impactful for this contest. However, I don't know if you're supposed to put your name on the poem or not.
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:40 PM
It doesn't say in the rules but I will remove it and thanks for the lovely comment - thanks:-) Hugs jan xxx
Carrillo Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:16 PM
A great poem. This kind of thing happens all the time. It never pays. Men and women - if they cheat, just leave them. Thanks for sharing. Good luck in the contest... Lucilla
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:17 PM
Thanks Lucilla for your kind comment:-) Hugs Jan xxxx
Nance Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:02 PM
That did make me cry, I have a good friend who is prison for confronting a cheating girlfriend. I can't blame him, she screwed him over, it is a shame, cheating should be a punishable crime, everyone becomes a victim. These girls shouldn't get away with it. how much it destroys, how much can another person emotionally handle! Wow Jan, you sure did get me going! That is powerful enough to get me thinking, Well DoNe!!! I applaud your poem and you :)
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 4:56 PM
Think your poem will hit the top spot! Hugs jan xx
Nance Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 4:40 PM
Yeah sorry, you got me goin', thanks though I needed to release some of my pent up rawrs! Hey thats is what poetry is, you got it goin' on girl!
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 3:06 PM
It's a very sad write Casarah - I didn't realise how people I care about here would relate to this in their lives and I hate to think I have trawled up painful memories with a fictitious write:-( Thanks for your lovely comment as ever:-) Hugs Jan xx
Bauer Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:38 PM
This is a great write, Jan, especially since you're writing from inside someone else's head. Good luck in the contest!
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:40 PM
Thank you Ilene I am glad I can confirm this IS a totally fictitious write! Thanks for your lovely comment:-) Hugs Jan xx
Smith Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:20 PM
I contemplated going that path Jan...but took the high road....lovely piece..It is easy to get caught up in the emotions of the events at hand but difficult to step away and get the big picture....hugs Tim
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:31 PM
Phew I would so hate to think my words would bring you pain. Hugs as ever Jan xx
Smith Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:28 PM
The wounds are all healed my dear and I can talk about it....I now see myself much happier and smile everyday with friends like you and Cas :) :) :) :)
Allison Avatar
August 7, 2014 at 2:24 PM
Oh Tim I'm so sorry if I have opened up painful wounds - I was merely trying to think outside the box for the contest :-( I am so relieved you went down the right path and you are here and such a cherished and special friend:-) Hugs Jan xxx
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