Social Anxiety

Am I acting normal? Am I blinking too much? Am I staring too long? Are people staring at me? Feeling nervous, embarrassed, uncomfortable inside. Reminding myself to not let the unease show. Making jokes to mask the nervous thoughts I have. Laughing to cover up the awkward reactions. Focusing on the distance to avoid staring too long. Reminding myself to not blink too often. Sitting alone, making an effort to not think if people think I’m strange because I’m not talking to anyone. Wishing I could blend in with the wallpaper, to hide my concerned thoughts that piece my mind.