Smudged

I don’t think he sees me through clear eyes My heart is lonely and my soul feels his lies His anger grows deep within his soul Marching like an enemy toward his foes Listening was never one of his better traits He hears what he wants and alters fate His kisses aren’t warm on my lips like before His arms leave me longing for something more He stole all the trust and left me alone Though he is right here it’s like no one is home My history is smudged and I feel the blame Everyday as he points out my shame His is tarnished though he’s like a book His love keeps me dangling on this hook I wait for him to see the whole of me But many a day I just wish to be free Responsibilities of children and home This woman is tired of doing it alone I know he is here but it’s left up to me Why can’t he help me, why can’t he see? Copyright © 2009 Lena “Lolita” Townsend