Smokescreen
11/6/22
Still I struggle to find the words
As I fight the urge
I'll either go under a tidal surge
Or make it out in the end I might emerge
Everyday, I've been getting carried away
Just putting myself closer to the stairway
Still they judge how dare they
Whatever happened to the concept of fairplay?
Down a path full of oak leaves
It's unclear where this road leads
Since it's still hidden behind a smokescreen
For my own needs
Always I go to the extreme
Still trying to be recruited by both teams
To it all I don't agree
I'm just trying to keep my nose clean
Continually I dig myself into a hole
And lose control
Slipping through the palm of my hand
It's all bad
Something people laugh at or call sad
Getting paid to clean up dog s***
It's no plot twist
Very little I've accomplished
This world's cold, I'm frostbit
Always I got lit
Putting something in my body that's toxic
The drink and drugs constant
I struggle to stop it
The problems could not fix
In the heart feels like I got shot with
Another bullet where it lodged and sits
I know that
Life can come with blowback
Due to our own acts
Can't just solve it with a glass of Cognac
Been years since I kissed or cried
No different this time
Look me in the eye
I admit I
Always get high
From the truth I'm not one bit shy
Does no good to just sit by
At that rate you will be quick to fry
Especially if you always let s*** fly
These are rules to live by
Far from coy or slick
With others people still toy with
I apologize If I have been a disappointment
Living life like it's just for enjoyment
Often I exploited
Instead of it being avoided
That was destroyed quick
By one button on a joystick
Continually the cash reeled in and coins flipped
Yet I was the downfall but no fingers need to be pointed
I just can't settle now
Continually with my mom I let her down
I struggle yet still mess around
It all makes me less than proud
All these devils and clowns
Across uneven surfaces far from ever being level ground
It started with several hounds
Now it's hundreds, you'd think with animals I've made a special vow
Copyright © Dalton Ogletree | Year Posted 2023
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