Silent Thoughts

As I sit here surrounded by his voice all I want is silence. I beg of him to just quit talking and let me be. However piece doesn't come so easily. My voice screams out in the dark only heard by my subconscious therefore he never hears my words. I remain silent as he shatters my heart into pieces. Wondering why this torture never ceases. I'm nothing now but a broken soul left withered on the floor. Praying that one day someone will open my doors. Unfortunately my doors are surrounded by walls that I've built. Mostly from the words he has spilt. Yet I'm afraid to let someone in and I'm afraid to be alone. I fear that I will never find where I belong. So I will remain hidden behind walls so high. Walking through life as I barely survive