Silent Cries From the Soul

Feeling trapped, there is nowhere to turn, my life is spinning out of control. Causing this deep ache in the bottom of my soul. I don't know who is pulling the strings, I need to run from these things. To escape, I need to dig my self out, past all this despair, through the doubt, and beyond the pain. I am not able to express, this gnawing pain and feeling of relentless distress. Some tears that are not visible to the naked eye and silent screams that no one can hear. Why bother to speak nothing can express, this feeling of sadness and worthlessness. Emotional pain is always with me through the day and it does not leave when I sleep, staying with me through the night leaving me with no strength left to fight. Anger for not having the courage to turn things around, quickly turns to depression keeping me anchored to this remorse, not able to untie the chains and change my course. False pride rules supreme, and there is a whisper in my ear, "never show a tear". Time wasted and badly spent resulting in lots of hurt with so much to repent. Stand and be strong for my soul, this is what I need to make myself whole. Victory, is what I need! Now others can see, they will know the real me. Standing tall with no strings, just standing proud amongst all others. False words will be used for them to hear but I still feel like a weapon has cut me inside, taking the joy out of my life, but this is softly spoken and not expressed. So the yells of victory and success that show triumph can be heard.