CayCay Godwin Poet Rhyme

Silence Crashed Gray

For My Holly

I never knew myself until you came into view.
                 'new girl' was my name ~ yours was the same
We mirrored each other's army brat depths.
                  we had unique views ~ we sought hidden clues
You left the ground with me so we might better see.
We pushed against boundaries blocking our free.

                      After a year and graduation day, both families moved away.
                           A year apart then we cheered for you were moving near.

Silence crashed gray around me in jarring strikes.
		news glued me undone ~ chilled shade blued my sun
Mere seconds flogged me numb with scarring spikes.
                your mind failed its start ~ I bore a shelled heart
We two had overturned set stones to deep-learn.
We partnered our uniqueness to bloom our yearn.

I rushed to your bedside … 
Blocking mental ills, pills trapped you within.
                I wore my softness ~ you trip-talked nonsense
Your eyes would never more answer your grin.
                we used to free dance ~ your sweet eyes loved chance
                                
Your soul art was partly shaped into my adult themes.
Our wings had barely spread from our teen dreams.  
We promised to lifelong gentle the other’s twin stream.
I never knew myself until you came into view.

I rushed to your bedside …  where my heart first slow died

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Andrew Fairchild February 17, 2019 at 7:32 PM I understand this one! My dear wife battled mental illness for 25 years. It is so hard to see it/have to watch it. Such a beautiful poem about the experience. Such a hard experience! It is always the memory of the love that is there, but is just hidden, sometimes, that keeps us going! God Bless You! CayCay Godwin February 21, 2019 at 7:26 AM Yes, you know then; I'm sure a lot of your 'growth' came from the experiences you had with your wife. I care for my bi-polar brother, and the poem is about my best friend, senior year of high school. I know that all the people we refer to are/were on their own human journey and for reasons beyond our human ability, despite appearances, all things were/are in divine order. More than your wife, more than my brother and friend, all three are God's children. Still, it hurts, I know. Thank you, Andrew - hugging you in 'relation'. Be golden ... CayCay

Heidi Sands February 17, 2019 at 8:44 AM Congratulations for your win CayCay :) CayCay Godwin February 21, 2019 at 7:32 AM Thank you, Heidi, I appreciate you. CayCay

Line Gauthier February 17, 2019 at 8:21 AM Congrats on your win, CayCay. Well penned.

Susan Gentry June 15, 2018 at 6:33 PM Oh I got chills! Congratulations on your win. Well-written, love the last line.

Elaine George June 12, 2018 at 2:51 AM Very heart wrenching CayCay. Many congrats on your win. Elaine

James Inman May 26, 2018 at 11:52 AM Exquisite write CayCay. The emotion is moving and the execution very well done.

John Gondolf May 19, 2018 at 10:06 AM Wow, such an emotional write, CayCay, I could feel the pain and sadness. Best of luck. Hope all is well with you. John

Andrea Dietrich May 19, 2018 at 9:37 AM wow, an amazing write, Caycay. Greg is sure to love this one. I really want to work on this form too. Soupmail for ya (as if there is not enough HOTmail already)

Tom Cunningham May 18, 2018 at 5:20 AM A verse straight from the heart, written really well, full of emotion.Good luck CayCay. Tom. CayCay Godwin May 18, 2018 at 5:40 AM Good morning, Tom - delighted to find you here. Many thanks for your comments, I appreciate them. Be blessed ... CayCay

Jan Allison May 18, 2018 at 2:26 AM I have tears reading your emotional lines CayCay :-( Am struggling to finish my poem, maybe today I can get round to writing more. Hugs jan xx CayCay Godwin May 18, 2018 at 5:39 AM Didn't mean to make you tear up - well, maybe I did. After I graduated from high school, my best friend and I both moved with our families, but we kept in touch and after a year, I learned she was moving to where I lived. I was so excited but upon their arrival, her Mother called me to say my friend had been admitted to a mental ward. It was a major emotional crash for me - I can still feel it. Thanks for your comments and good luck with all your writing today. Hope you are mending PERFECTLY. CayCay