not just obsessed Poet Free verse

Should’ve sourced for you

You had a smile so wide the first time I called your name
it was like I’d called you mine 
would happen so fast,
never too last 
turns out what’s in is in the past.
Just one or two times, 
it was in my mind
what I could’ve said and what I wanted you to find.
I found your page then, hoping to gauge when, 
there was not a trace nor a single clue 
I said your name proud and
probably too loud 
they said maybe you’d come around 
he asked you that, but what’s the truth
wanted to climb up to the roof 
then after that, when I walked by you
I was so tense and full of fear 
at what you might have said 
I felt I had no choice but to put it to bed.
I should’ve spoken more to you
I should’ve sourced for you
should’ve fought more for what this could be for just us two
every damn time, your eyes locked with mine,
we had to swallow those tears of our teenage blues
you are the one thing,
I missed having 
in my mind, every day and every damn night
now it’s too late, to even tempt fate 
you’ll never be the prize that I can call mine 
you flew the nest like it was best
I never saw your treasured chest;
I’ll just move on, like from the rest.
You could’ve been my weekend plans
you wore the crown, you were the man 
just one night, all it would take 
could’ve kept it quiet for just your sake 
I saw the pictures of you out 
quickly regretted my many shouts of my interest to your friends
what did they say throughout that night, 
“he’s obsessed, it’s not quite right”
or do they mourn what could’ve been 
have you found that other thing
that makes you smile so very wide 
is it a secret you want kept inside?
I’ll never speak to you again
we’re now strangers, not even friends 
now and then I wonder if I should just throw these aged fears of mine 
pick up the phone, see if you’re fine 
but do you feel like too much time has passed us by 
to even try and re-ignite a once lit flame
even after all this time, I’d let it burn me just the same.

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