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Shirley Beeeee You

Shirley, BEEEEE You !!!

This days light, has come to a glorious end,
with it, it brought some memories of a friend.
Lady Snow, was belting out – whispering  in my ears
of days winging by – memories , experiences of bygone years.

I have reached in deep – knowing – I created your tears
as your world of doubts, of insecurities, of fears
hung onto a desire for me – for my passions fires
fires that have lead me to beds and to funeral pyres

upon which I have burned and burned, yet never learned
to be compassionate, empathetic for the passions earned.
Only for the touch, the feel, a fleshy meal I yearned
for, a talking in tongues to that deliciously sweet pink

- Mother earth laying beneath a furry, forest floor – and think
of all who gave, all who needed, and realize !, to my grave, a fink.
I, sometimes wonder ?, about all those who gave much to me’
I wonder what they feel ?, – think – if at all and what they see

in what once was- that made up the moments of what would be,
now nothing more than experiences committed to memories hoard
where they are all stored - in remembering, would they be boars ?
Some will remember, some will forget, some will deeply bury.

I am left, can only wonder ?, - in the end - will they carry
fragments, flakes of my soul, my spirit, me, with them to their end.
Will they ever wonder ?, will they ever know ?, I was just a friend
or will they see me as empty to them now as I was empty to them

so long ago, a time of once shared intimacies and fun, when
we were so care free, before we moved on to things different,
and new for me and you and what we once had, was sent
into the caves of history for which there would be no rent.

I do wonder what was in your mind, what you were able to find ?,
as you thought of me, did you find that I was very seldom kind?
For all these many years – tears for what was left behind
- all of life’s pleasures, with – all, from time to time, fill my mind !

B. J. “A ” 2
February 18th 2006

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Kp Nunez Date: 3/1/2015 11:18:00 AM Another heart-rending write, sire. I wonder how your heart could still be whole after all this time! Levity aside, you excel with this style. 7 hugs and smiles. :D Kim Login to Reply William J. Jr. Atfield Date: 3/3/2015 8:31:00 PM “ Shirley BEEEEE You ”. “ Another heart-rending write, sire ” as was the story for Shirley, I just hope that in reading it, she saw that she was not alone and I was not worth the heart ache she felt. “ I wonder how your heart could still be whole after all this time ! ”. It probably isn’t “ whole ” my Dear ? It is more than likely just slivers from all who cared and shards of those I cared for which probably explains how “ you excel with this style. ” I would really like to know, just what that style is ??? “. 7 hugs and smiles. :D Kim ”, gratefully accepted my Dear, and back at you. And again Kim, thank you for the visit and the insightful and glowing comments. B. J. “A” 2 ( Bill . )