Shattered Mind

Oh Man, where am I? What caused this pain and why? I desperately cannot live this insane life. For the pain of memories brings in strife. I grab my head as my mind bends and breaks. I want relief, grabbing the bottle as my handshakes. Is there no end to my depraved madness? As I witness my loved ones in fear and sadness. Slowly I subsume to the liquid delirium. Head spinning, spinning as I lose my equilibrium. Curling up as severe pain thrashes my gut. I crawled to the bathroom toilet and threw up. Coughing violently, I lean against the toilet bowl for rest. Again this severe pain has now gripped hard in my Chest. Is this the final relief I so desperately seek and want? Or is this the hell bent on madness as it laughingly taunts. Oh, to be at peace from this war raging in my head. The atrocities to innocent people stricken me as they are dead. Finally the darkness envelops me like a kind friend. Family gathers around me crying, knowing it’s my end. Suddenly, a whispering voice calls my name. It carries on gently as it calmly soothes my pain. My soul feels swirling love that it desperately yearns. As my brother has told me that it's time to return. I awaken to hear gasps and crying as I smile. They thought I had died but I was gone for awhile. I told them that our brother has made me whole. I was happy and excited about new life and it showed.