Severed Latency

I am not hardened by your strong sense of will  And i am not weakened by any fragility of spirit I am not stood still, awaiting my becoming – i am flowing And no longer do i fear the ingrained teachings of which you still hold dear I have retreated and enveloped in shadow — far too long Once entangled by your distorted webs i could not see coming And then at night i lied latent, a lingering state of questioning Cocoon of unease-full sleep in the woven bed you had made A saga of indifference used to evince itself in plenty an instance Namely, i wore clothing of poise and purity to gratify your expected modesty of me And hid behind prayer and knelt to save me from the art of unsanctioned vulgarity  Would you now say i have plucked from the garden of forbidden fruit Since i fail to follow the faith leading to your promised land? False promises have propelled me forward towards honest grace And sincerity now speaks to me in spirituality, my sacred space I do not need to succeed failure to gain my attention nor to silence any dismay And i do not feel urgency to stray away from my intrinsic gateways  I am not frightened by your close attention to detail Pertaining to matters of me and the ideas i adopt to be true instead Nor do i bother about your views on my newfound philosophies  Considering i feel seldom incomplete presently, so i can reason with you now Alas, when i used to cry i could not turn to you But my forgiveness touches places accessible to you these days I can see beyond our diverged paths and welcome you all the same For even if shame rouses, i shall not place the blame onto your heart spaces You have taught what you’ve known and rightly so I just pray and hope you can accept a version of me who’s changed Since i feel earthbound without the cloudiness of what you’ve tried to arrange So are you convinced that cherubs await those in disbelief of your deity in parade Or did these unleashings persuade you further into your religious and lawful ways?