Separation

I don't know exactly what I am feeling, Numbness maybe so; But deep inside I feel a pain, one I have yet to know. I thought our love was meant to be, blessed by God himself on high; Now in my heart there is only bitterness, and tears they fill my eye. Seventeen years I have been blessed, to have you by my side; as my friend and soul mate, with whom I could confide; But now my world is shattered, my life taken before my very eyes; Your heart to me it seems so cold, love for me it seems has died. Maybe this is all Im worth, maybe my karma has caught up to me; maybe God has turned his back, and cursed now I must be. I have never felt such pain, stabbing my heart to my very soul; breaking me down from my very core, and gouging a deep dark hole. I now pray daily, that I can just get past the pain; To the anger bitterness and rage, so I can again feel sane. For I now fear the future, alone it seems I now must be; Depression is starting to take a hold, my mind is no place for me