Self Realization

Too many ups and downs in the journey Too much sweet, bitter and honey Far far away long way travel Crying for peace in front of the devil Destructed abstracted undefined destiny Self-realizations in the middle of the journey Multi-personalities in a tourney Giving up and giving in convicted felony For murdering the person in me Painting characters to fitting in to see Too many unanswered questions for thee Humming happily for the sunflower-like bee Praying for God to unlock the key Self-realization got me on my knee. That I am worth it and worthless That I am hopeful and hopeless That I am cheap and priceless. I go round and round on my youth Nursing my pain for pills of sooth. I finally found out that realization is self-lose.