Self Despise

Leave. No, stay. Hidden behind this interleave. Make all the bad things go away. All the lies given to me. Fed by my own. And as much as I would like to disagree. I remain with this knowledge, all alone. I turn head tricks. Confusing the intelligent. Giving you twice the pain. For twice the licks. Given to you. For false sentiment. So please let your apology refrain. Your lies are the only thing that seems to spew. Stay. Don't go. Living in my world of disarray. Leaving these words to sow. I love to hate my flaws. Afraid they'll harm you, though. Held back by my own clause. Thinking this river is too tough to row. Leave. Get away. Your lies make me heave. I don't want you to stay. I should appreciate you. I could accomplish that. Considering you are me in everything you do. If there was such thing as peace in this combat. Go. Don't stay. Your true colors now show. Held captive beneath the tray. Lying and deceiving. While I lied and tried to hide. Always the one receiving. All the things I hold inside.