Self Aware

if I know, Not really though, I don't even trust my judgement as far as I can throw. What the hell do I know? I mean, My abilities are there, But my determination is zero. Motivated to stay sober, But adulting? How is it so hard to be my own hero? If I don't do something about this rage quit demon, I'll become the villain. I want to hold a job, To be a productive civilian. I want to have that little slice of normalcy, Of inner peace And personal intimacy.