Self-Hate

More empty patience in retreat A worthy design for my self-deceit More lack of care to spin my will More ways to pretend that I can still…. My reason drifts into this pain A conflict of spells manifest again Reflective hatred steals my will I’m frozen in fear as my mirror kills I breathe through rusted steel bars The air is disease and the water scars My trust becomes what I escape As I close my eyes, it’s only me I betray So barely able to remain The mirror reminds me that there’s only pain So close to silence and despair The mirror reminds me that I should never care More fallen promise in defeat A worthy design for my self-deceit More weakness driving what I do More self-hate within, reflecting on you