Jimmy Anderson Poet Kyrielle

Secrets

Secrets...Buried deep inside me is so much pain.
     I bury myself in my poetry, but it's all in vain.

Secrets...Fills that dark void, consuming all of me.
     Leaves me paranoid, and feeling I have no security!

Secrets...Would people care, or would it be just no use?
     I know life ain't fair and I wondered why I suffered physical and sexual abuse?

Secrets...I keep it all balled up inside, and I just can't find release.
     Those secrets I hide, and I can't seem to find no peace.

Secrets...I try to reach out to others, but don't trust a soul.
     I'm scared to get close to another, and it's hard to maintain self control.

Secrets...My ex-wife left me for another man, because she couldn't handle the time.
     And I completely understand, and so i bury myself in a rhyme.

Secrets...I'm in love with a woman, but want my cake and eat it too.
     She wants to give up on me, but only if she knew.

Secrets...How can I say to her, she's like my momma rebirth?
     After my momma passed I never thought I could find that love again on this earth.

Secrets...I must get this off my chest, and I hope you competely understand.
     That my aching heart won't rest unless you forever hold my hand!

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Chuck Keys September 18, 2010 at 9:59 AM we all have our secrets. it seems, as we age, the past secrets taken on less weight in what holds us back - there is so much "forward to happen" that will eventually outweigh the past - as i know from my life experiences. the pain will always be there, it just becomes less important - and this is something to look forward too. continue to lead your life, your style, with goodness and God, give more than you receive - and everything will work out - just ask God. thank you for sharing, chuck

Deb Wilson September 17, 2010 at 12:24 PM We all have those secrets that haunt us as we go about living..but I release mine thru words as you have done..very nice..Take care~Deb

Wilma Neels September 17, 2010 at 11:08 AM A beautiful heartfelt write sharing of your fears Jimmy. Giving them a name will not make them an unknown entity anymore. Bb Wilma

Audrey Haick September 17, 2010 at 11:00 AM Very touching and I feel you. This is one of the things I love about you..your honesty and openess..just amazing..still, be cautious who you tell your secrets to, JAM. Not every one has a heart as yours. Much love, PB

Constance La France September 17, 2010 at 9:12 AM This is beautiful Jimmy, gosh, we all have secrets, not so much unlike yours, and we have been hurt also.. I put my pain and hurt in my poetry.. I often write of my childhood, because, I think it is the only time I knew unconditional true love, I thought I had found it again with my husband, but God had other plans, I hope you find that perfect love and she takes that hand you offer from your heart~~

Francine Roberts September 17, 2010 at 8:21 AM good one Jimmy, very touching , much enjoyed your poetry this morning

Joe Flach September 17, 2010 at 8:10 AM Nicely done, Jimmy. Touching. Well written. Good meter and rhythm. Something I bet many people can relate to and either empathize or sympathize with - which makes it more appealing. Thanks for sharing your "Secrets". Joe