Secret Lover

"Secret Lover" Fight to live and never stop, Give it hell till the casket drops, Break these chains and find my self, Shake this habit for my health, Don't believe him when he lies, Bitter sweetness my demise, On my arms he leaves his mark, Peaceful chaos in the dark, Silent assassins claims another, Innocent tears missing their mother, Stolen away like a thief in the night, Oblivious numbness fades into light, Addicted to the peace found in the pain, Kept in secret and Hidden in shame, I fill the sting I see red cough and drift away, Like a fool I chase this dragon though I need to slay, With every kiss he steals some life taking from me breath, Temptation whispers in my ear lies of a beautiful death, I beg him To go but he knows Im lying, Tainted is his love killing its certain I'm dying, Every move he makes always in silence, Im a wiling victim of his domestic violence, Realization of illusion my distorted reality, Sociopathic addiction and forgotten Fatality, At first I believed him guess just blind ignorance, Now Searching for his presence found in a rinse, On a mission to escape although its imprisoned relief, Aware of true intentions and recognized is this Greif, Press on to the finish and beat these odds, Memories soon to fade of a junkies' nods, Stay strong and endure this rough weather, For myself for my little ones gotta do better, No EPO to keep him at bay, Left with my thoughts so on my knees I pray, Turn to God this time and really try, Make a choice to live and not to die, I must face him this monster that haunts, Lingering In the shadows I hear his taunts, I call him hank but he has many, Call him what you will his names are plenty, He is the one who takes my soul, In truth he bought it some time ago, The one that takes but doesn’t give, The most feared predator to date to live, Addiction shows to me no mercy, Craving just a taste unquenched left thirsty, Ill get it right I'll win this battle ill shine, And keep on fighting this fight, that wasn’t ever meant to be mine. -amber smith