Seconds Away

My transparency is clouded by rainy eyes. Closed wide open Dilated pupils penetrate the delicate skin protecting the aged flesh of my soul. But seeing nothing Not even the emptiness of my being. Becomming integrated in the shadows of certainty Sentimental flowers line my grave As the petals disintegrate above my reach I feel a peaceful death slipping Through the cracks of my fingers Attempts to rise above the pain fail me Instead; I float below the sky Flying with broken wings Broken by the winds of reality Hiding behind words; Refusing to be defeated by unshed tears That have already soiled my smile Anger rushes through me; Not fully understanding why no one Nothing understands the beat of my heart The lack of beat in my heart Shining blank eyes at my pain Expecting smiles to comfort their faces Yet I yearn for a comforting stare This emptiness This void eats at my sanity Living in the death of expectation Reaching for nothing Becomming the nothing that is within me With Questions... Why is my only release through a pen? Why my only ears is this paper Watching time speed along I await the fire And as the coldness arrive I will burn in the ashes of my tears