Searching

Searching the earth in pursuit of something that I cannot find It makes it difficult to get my desires when I am hence purblind. I recently met a gallant, intelligent, gentle, loving man; with so many issues I can never understand. What are his reasons, his motives, I do not know. So many doubts, so many questions, I will have to take it slow. But I am getting older and do not have all the time as before. So here I sit with questions, doubts and fears galore. He tells me I'm beautiful and sexy and in his arms I feel all aglow. I would like to give completely, but how can I share with a man I hardly know. So many moments, so many stories, it is all so surreal. He has too many layers that I will need to peel. How can I know what his true intentions are. Sometimes his words can be hard to take in and quite bizarre. Is he ready for a person such as me; am I ready for a person such as he? I feel sad when he is not with me, and then I feel unsteady when he is; this makes me into a volatile, capricious, unpredictable little Miss. But the uncertainties of the situation make my thoughts run extreme. So many doubts, so many fears I cannot take another hit to my self esteem So, as I sit here pondering and wondering where this may go. Should I take the chance and make this kind, gentle, loving man my beau?