Saudade

"Saudade is a pleasure you suffer, an ailment you enjoy." ~ Manuel de Melo

I sit in our room and think of you,
ponder your framed, steady gaze,
touch the circle on the wall
where you placed your head
during those days of propped pillows,
watching the Discovery Channel in bed.
You liked to learn about faraway places,
black holes, other universes.
I remember the hour you 
slipped into one of them.
You left your skin and bones,
keys, wallet, phone,
all your clothes,
the halo above our bed:
All the un-necessities
for this new place where you live,
though you visit me in dreams.
Are you an image on a screen?
You never let me see the other side.
Do you have some secret that must be kept?
I keep everything the same,
don’t even stretch my leg across our bed
just in case you want to slip back again,
though I know you won’t return.
I’ll have to come to you instead.
“We have to pay the price,” is what you always said:
The toll it takes, every day, to re-accept
this new arrangement that’s been made,
where there’s pain, yes, but also wonderment, allure.
I still believe you, and there’s more to believe.
You swore you’d never leave.


Saudade Poetry Contest
Sponsored by Edward Ibeh 
February 7, 2019
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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Gauthier Avatar
February 25, 2019 at 4:17 PM
Bravo, Rita. An absolute FAVE for me. Congrats on your well deserved win with this gem.
Simmonds Avatar
February 25, 2019 at 5:40 PM
Thank you!!!
Harper Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 9:47 PM
Wonderful Saudade poem, you show longing in action and words, enjoyed the read.
Simmonds Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 11:09 PM
Thank you, Sheri!
Andresen Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 1:03 PM
- A painful feeling ... the price can be too high Rita - - Congratulations on your 2nd place in the Saudade contest - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
Simmonds Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 6:30 PM
Thank you!
Ibeh Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 8:50 AM
Thanks for taking part in my contest, Rita!:-) Such a fabulous write! Congratulations on your win!
Simmonds Avatar
February 24, 2019 at 6:29 PM
Thank you for the opportunity to express myself!
Goff Avatar
February 12, 2019 at 2:24 PM
Rita...this poem is wonderfully constructed to bring the reader along on the personal journey of the subject's inner thoughts dealing with excruciating loss, thanks for sharing...jim
Simmonds Avatar
February 12, 2019 at 3:07 PM
Thanks for reading, Jim!
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