Sane Again

The voices, inside my head
Screaming, while I go to bed.
I shut them off with physical pain, 
Expecting to be sane again

There’s a monster hiding behind the smile,
A smile that hides it all.
There’s a window to this broken soul,
To which you can’t reach at all.
The constant battles, with my thoughts
The battles that I lost.

I shut the voices with physical pain 
And expected to be sane again.
Sitting here in a chair
Whishing I could breathe the air
Just like everyone else 
And be sane again 

Trying to get out of here
Escaping from people’s stare
Trying to be like everyone else 
Be sane again, sane again

The voices, inside their head
Screaming, while they go to bed
They shut them off with physical pain,
And expect to be sane again. 

There’s an altruist hidden behind her scars
Who knows the pain of all,
Tries to rescue a stranger from shattering apart
Because she’s seen it all.

The people, that I know
Say I’m perfect and I should know
They ask me why I cut my hair
And changed myself completely 
They don’t know about the voices inside my head 
That  scream, while I go to bed
that I shut them off with physical pain
Expecting to be sane again

They don’t know why
 I’ve learned to hate my own guts
Scribbling on my 
arm with a blade

They don’t know why 
I still want to hurt more
Wanting to die
Life’s well played

The voices, inside my head
Screaming, while I go to bed.
I shut them off with physical pain, 
Expecting to be sane again

But now only scars remain 
I am sane again.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Shines Avatar
July 21, 2017 at 9:26 AM
I hope that this is only poem.There's always light just right the corner,just we need to come out to see it.Take care and trust me everything will be fine.
Turner Avatar
July 14, 2017 at 8:05 AM
Disturbing write, Prerna. I pray it is only a poem for it is indeed dark. If you need someone to talk to, I am an email away. Be well young lady:)
White Avatar
July 14, 2017 at 3:01 AM
Very relatable this, wish I could say it wasn't, but it is. Very well written poem, welcome to PoetrySoup.
Magon Avatar
July 14, 2017 at 4:39 AM
are you okay? and thank you so much. Pals?
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