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Sadly Sick In Bed

And...I ponder
Do people even care about me? Sadly, I can't see...
Sucks being bipolar,
Having episodes of madness, sadness and ecstasy...

I am numb
I can't feel anymore
I am dumb, 
Wisdom out the door...

Change is a challenging chore...
I need some satisfaction
Not this...anger sensation
Action takes its time some more...

Seeing others' succeed
While I remain this weed
That sucks the life of you
I'm sorry I cussed and fussed endless
Because of what you do
You seem to smile away your sadness 

I wear the mask of plastic gladness
You don't see or care about my distress
Maybe, I'm acting selfish...actually, I was
Attempting to be selfless is trust with flaws

I'm bewildered because I have become
Ignorant and blissful like many these days...these days...
Wrapped up in bed, worthless like a crumb
I'm not looking for attention in this frustration maze 

I bet no one will read this..or would scroll away in inner success rays
Hear me out beyond the pained and hopeless...we all need beloved praise
Time is not by our side, only God and Christ is quite frankly
I had enough alone time, I need to belong a wee bit actually

Energy is low and under the weather
Fever above a hundred, now cooled off
Don't feel sorry for me whatsoever 
These hot and cold flashes and what not is enough!

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Debbie Duncan

Date: 6/14/2018 7:07:00 PM

Very good write, is it true? Are you sick in bed, or is it just a very good write. Sometimes we all have a little too much alone time. Then our simply brains try to run away with thoughts. Thank you for your nice comment on my Ocean poem :)

J.W. Earnings
Date: 6/15/2018 11:55:00 PM

Yes, all of it is true and based on a true, under-the-weather event. I have a pretty good balance between alone time and people time or at least I try. Heh. :D Yeah, my brain is always running marathons with racing, manic muses and thoughts. You're welcome. -JWE

Charles Messina

Date: 6/6/2018 8:55:00 PM

Too much alone time will make you lonely for sure...Excellent write JW...Peace...Charlie

J.W. Earnings
Date: 6/7/2018 12:16:00 AM

To be*** typo haha

J.W. Earnings
Date: 6/7/2018 12:15:00 AM

Thank you tremendously and so true..I try to active socially and physically and it is challenging, but a good few challenges. Have a wonderful week. -JWE