Sacred Darkness

“Sacred Darkness” Tired of feeling like my heart is a piece of trash on the highway Ran over by every passing car without a driver willing to pick it up Squished to the point where it no longer beats, no longer lives I feel like I am a no one who has ever mattered to anyone I’ve known Alone in the dark on Saturday night without a soul to calm my darkest fears Unable to smile when my life is full of turmoil and sadness So tired of this darkened room that keeps my days full of words not voices I can’t help but believe that if I were no longer breathing others hearts would never skip a beat Believing that my future has already passed I think of what’s to come Knowing my heart will never beat like yesterday I give up on tomorrow This isn’t me throwing a pity party but the truth about my thoughts With no one to share those with I feel like this darkness will always be So tonight I wash my hands of everyone but myself not longer afraid of the darkness Never afraid to pass away for I’ve already lived the best times of my life I’m ready to lay my head on my pillow, close my eyes, and never see tomorrow’s sunlight For if I wake again tomorrow it’s because Gods will is for me to suffer in the sacred darkness