Sabotage

I sabotage my happiness, When things are going good. I blow small things out of proportion More often, then I should. I let you in, until it scares me, Then, slam the door in your face. Telling you, I'm just frustrated, Asking, that you give me space. I feel the rift between us growing, As you no longer try. You used to at least attempt to understand, You used to hold me when I cried. I often ponder where it all went wrong, As I move my heart, a level higher on the shelf. Maybe I didn't trust your love for me, Because I had never loved myself.