Ruptured

When I felt I was under
 judgmental power,
it worried me.
 
Those causes 
brought me running 
down the hill straight home
sit by my desk 
hold my pen write, 
while listening to the sound 
of the clock chiming, 
with a hope, 
when I leave my chair 
my life would change.

I was once a woman 
of style shinning, 
yet they judged me
as a tedious unreasonable 
unpleasant unqualified
for their society.

I felt once unique universal
they judged me,
as an undesirable person
with no feelings.

I felt once as a tenacious 
and tender woman,
I was judged as superficial
sullen suitable only
to suffer.

I once felt talented with tact 
but they saw me 
as a talkative
stubborn woman
uncreative.

I was once welcomed 
well known well bred,
they judged me as vulnerable 
with no vitality unlucky 
worthless,
a zero.

I felt once I was a warm 
warm hearted woman,
today I am washed out 
weeping, unwilling
to fight back, 
as my insight withered.
I am wounded weak 
because of them.

At the beginning
I was always right
today I am always 
wrong.

Therese Bacha
7 July 2013

Copyright © | Year Posted 2013



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Date: 7/23/2013 12:48:00 AM
Terry, this one is so sad. I can feel the sorrow permeating it. It's been a while since I heard word of you. I do hope you are ok, sweet lady!
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Date: 9/10/2013 1:45:00 PM
Hi pretty woman, yes I am better now, free again. See u Terry
Date: 7/22/2013 8:50:00 PM
It's so sad when words such as your last stanza are written. When one feels that they are worse off than before. Do not lose that confidence you should have in your words. They are powerful and strong. I love this poem. Keep at it! :)
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Date: 9/10/2013 1:46:00 PM
Hi, thank you so much for passing by, I enjoyed sharing your feelings, don't worry I will get back my strength. Bless u Terry
Date: 7/12/2013 9:03:00 AM
Reading this poem..my thoughts went to my relationship with mydaughter.Now that she s a baby..I am her everything.I wonder as she grows older and become less needy of who i am..How she will see me then.Old fashioned?Hopeless?I really dont know..but what i know is..I do my best and leave the rest to God.I do believe that we change as we grow older..but Old age isnt something to accept but something to be blessed to live.I do wish i ll be like you at your age..That would make me proud sweet lady
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Date: 7/12/2013 10:42:00 AM
Hi Charmain, I think giving your daughter your love, is more than enough. She will be always so proud of you. Will see you . Love Terry xoxo
Date: 7/11/2013 9:15:00 PM
Hi Terry; Life teaches us many lessons. There are times when we feel weak. I know - I''ve been there, but God gives us the strength that we need. You are not weak and you are not always wrong. Thanks for sharing this with us.... Lucy
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Date: 7/11/2013 9:30:00 PM
Hi Lucy. Thanks for passing by. Will see you soon. Love Terry
Date: 7/9/2013 9:52:00 AM
I agree with you Terry, at the beginning I always felt as if I was right...now I'm wrong....PD
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Date: 7/10/2013 1:37:00 PM
Hi PD, thank you for passing by. Yes time and life make us change. Take care Love Terry xxxx
Date: 7/8/2013 6:20:00 AM
- Deep wounds will always put scars my friend. - A strong poem about life's experiences. - Well written! - I've posted a blog and a new poem. - Thank you for called for me .... but could not answer, sorry. - But now I'm back!! - oxox / / always your friend Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 7/10/2013 1:36:00 PM
I forgot to sign. Love Terry xoxo
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Date: 7/10/2013 1:35:00 PM
Hi Anne, its ok, I am glad you are back. Thank you for passing by.
Date: 7/7/2013 9:42:00 PM
There is still a fire smoldering ready to fight inside those beautiful words...wonderful poem...
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Date: 7/7/2013 10:02:00 PM
Hello, this one I found it by mistake, I arranged it yesterday at 11 PM and posted it. Terry xxx
Date: 7/7/2013 2:58:00 PM
You have expressed yourself so powerfully, you are not weak, you are strong and desirable! You are my friend! Life can be mean as Sara has said, life can bring suffering and pain at times, I hate to hear of people going through hard times! You have masterfully written a fantastic poem here my friend! What an outstanding piece, Great Work!!
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Date: 7/7/2013 7:10:00 PM
Hi Russell my friend, I enjoy so much always reading your heart felt reviews about my poem. You do make me feel already a writer. Thank you again and again. Terry xoxo
Date: 7/7/2013 8:32:00 AM
Life can be mean sometimes..Enjoyed reading your creative and emotive work..I hope that today is good for you..Sara
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Date: 7/7/2013 2:00:00 PM
Hi Sara, I am glad you read it, I felt it was a strong poem. I will write. Hugs Terry
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