Ruing the Emotionally Prosperous Papa Razz Zee Life I Did Not Live

Arduous agonizing affliction doth unrelentingly assail... aghast to exhale lest...lose desperate clinging clutch held by bloodied cracked fingernail phantasmagoric tendrils constrict stoppering me to whisper or wail yawning abyss menacingly beseeches hmm...release could immediately curtail cumulative (lifetime's worth) travail freefalling, pirouetting unnervingly, unstoppably, unwaveringly... zipping into infinite black hell hole ail mince vanish as doth guilt - a hail storm peppering psyche... jail time for eternity excluded option asper garden variety baby boomer male, albeit the father of deux darling daughters, the eldest (broke vow of silent communication), she reached out after months long hiatus telltale indications to accept genuine apology her papa (me) rages against hurtfulness, he affixed indelible psychological scars each travail boomeranged backed to yours truly duress during her impressionable years, she did rail and rant previous conversation, the scale innocent intelligent progeny, we begat (myself and misses) financially ill prepared to provide respectable accommodations "dirt poor" status detrimental with affluent MainLine incomes luxe Lower Merion living costs fateful design neighbors cursed, ostracized, vilified... unsightly unkempt property (i.e. unmanicured) intolerant snobs didst malign child welfare services called NOT to dine but emphatic for papa and mama to align dwelling safe and secure for minors yes, I attest despicable living conditions crowded house with Zison heirlooms owners - malignant hoarders did confine considerably reducing cubic feet, they relations of spouse evicted us ready to point carbine at temple...quicker than noose dead of winter 2010 near homelessness relocated within "roach motel" decline among our dynamics with offspring livid with rage, asper an inferno no divine comedy compounded by lascivious behaviour - mine to hasten dateline enduring helplessness, hardship being alive plus brandishing knife against self witnessed...I assign poor marks as paternal parent, who bemoans loathsome impact...this papa gropes toward hotline!