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RSVP for Loneliness

I once heard Loneliness is an invitation to become still it is not a punishment. What happens when you realize you are already complete? That you wasted years looking for some missing piece and parts of a false story you were fed from infancy. When all along you were the hero of that fantasy.  False, like all those rescue stories read to all the little she’s, where we were told we needed to be saved from the dragon blocking our gentle hearts’ entry from some vicious monster coincidentally. What if those dragons were mere reflections of you, of your inner warrior defending all the fragile parts within you? Realizing no one is coming to slay the dragon that seems to defend you. Finally understanding that was a false fable fed to restrain and constrain you. You now see, that isolation was never an exile but an initiation to be free.  Being alone is liberating but people assume it is a weakness with nothing happy. When in fact only in solitude can one find their true self, that our masks have been holding back from ourselves. Most people apply a mask before introducing themselves to the other actors  involved in the cast.  Never learning being alone is freeing,  as you no longer feel the need to impress or put on an act. You don’t need permission to be happy. That sentence slammed against my chest, like a ball to bat. There is no script that can be memorized until  you truly believe you are the perfect fit and  role for that. All along I was waiting for someone to grant me a pass to some form of happiness  I never believed I alone could have.  Always trying to get permission from people who are in no position to delegate my existence missions if it be,  “solo path”.  Especially after learning the facts. I can’t slay a dragon, if she is me,  and my inner strength I never thought I had.  I don’t need a prince like those fairytales encouraged me to have. I just needed to pet my little dragon, while reassuring her that I now will have her back. Without being alone I wouldn’t have been able to process all of that. So here is to my invitation to loneliness, I hope I get an RSVP back.

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